tell me I’m cruel and have no heart.
I choosed to leave a guy who loved me for who I am because I can’t stand living and walking with another shadow in my life..
I can’t live everyday with my thoughts of him that I should talk to him just to make him happy and comfort.
He whined a lot about his job while I don’t have time and don’t have any space left in my brain to be filled with someone else’s stories and burdens..
Since i really love what I do (work) I feel like I turned out to be more cocky and arrogant maybe, but I just didn’t feel that comfort anymore keeping my relationship with him..
I lost the fun side
I lost the love feeling
and I let him go
It’s been a month and I just want you all to know that I am happy being alone right now, but yes, sometimes I want a boyfriend or just someone to hook up.
But in my condition, I don’t think I’m able to be involved in a serious relationship. I work hard , and my job has abducted 90% of my thoughts space.
I need to feed my family and keep my sister in a good school. That’s not easy when your dad left you when u were 10, your mom has no job, your brother dropped out, and your little sister still in junior high.
But guys come and go like seasons. I was crazy with a football guy from Cameroon, but he taught me well, I’m a strong lady now and never ever beg him anymore. and so I treat the other guys.. if they lied to me, for example he said he is saving now to get to your country and marry you, but then you saw his status in facebook changed in to “in a relationship with XXX” .. I removed him from my friends list on facebook.
Another case : I have a best friend, and one day he said he actually loved me and asked me to be his girlfriend. I said no, because for me it’s weird to have a special relationship with your best friend who you already know too much ! on the next day I met him and talked about job.. I had a chance to see his phone, and I found out from his messenger that he already has a gf.. BUSTED!
He didn’t want to admit it, he said they just made up last night after I dumped him >> you guys don’t think I trust it right?
Few days later I talked to my best friend (girl) which is his ex in high school. She said she called him 3 weeks ago and found out that he already has a gf.. JERK ! He lied to me again.. the fact is he asked me to be his gf, while he already has a gf.. !
But that’s life.. and guys will be guys ..
I don’t even really care if there is a good guy for me whatsoever..
I don’t think I still have LOVE to share
just let it be
Funny. He mentioned a lot of girls he’s considered marrying but you never seemed more than a foreign friend. Sorry he didn’t want to travel halfway around the world and spend all of his hard earned money for your benefit. I tell you what. When he finishes paying his way through school with the money he earns from the job he complains about, we will visit you. Maybe it will be our honeymoon. If so I will buy you a drink and you can forget the guy you had no chance with and stop including my full name in these pathetic whiny blogs.
Sorry. I’m a bitch who was ignorant of how douchy my ex boyfriend Keoni Liao really is. If you don’t know what douchy means, it means dirty asshole. You were honest. He’s a lying bastard. And I am not masochistic enough to stay with him. Upon finding out his lies and deception I promptly broke up with him. Maybe someone will google him before making the mistake of dating him.